Dry heaving

Heavy breathing

Heart pounding

Can’t find grounding

4am ; never late

160 heart rate

Hands shake

I don’t want to be awake

But I don’t want to be asleep

The trauma simply runs too deep

Night mares

And jump scares

Torture and terror

Heart break and despair

Lives lived in dreams

Tears shed, loud screams

Wake up sweating

Drenched my bedding

4am ; never late

160 heart rate

I don’t want to be awake